Glory
20 Jul 2010 Leave a Comment
These few days have been spent thinking. Sometimes I just hope for much more time and energy to just think about so many pressing issues that have been fighting for my attention. I’ve been journaling but these journal entries seem to always be a back log of what I have been thinking about 2 days ago. Today, I wrote about what I thought about on Sunday. There are just so many things to think deeply about! Yesterday, I had a really good conversation with grace about media & the gospel, and I’ve been scrambling to find a huge amount of time to just sit down and write, but I just fail so often to find that time. This morning, I thought about how I would set aside time to meet up with friends, but no time to just journal, read God’s word and think. With project alone, I seek to change that, and am slowly gravitating towards that aim :]
While thinking this morning, I lament the things I write on this blog, on my tumblr as well as on twitter. Sometimes I realized that my twitter is used as ranting grounds – when I am angry, irritated, upset, happy, elated – Twitter.com is the first place to go. It’s like broadcasting my life but failing to glorify God in the broadcasting. What then is the purpose of my life? – to glorify myself? to let others know that I have good friends that hang out with me, that I had a good time, that I am angry and upset? This is not a glorifying act at all. I want to use this space to please God, to use my twitter to honor God and my tumblr to praise Him. No doubt, not being flawless, I still fail sometimes, hoping to want to feed my emo-ness or my displeasure about certain people/things, but I pray these online domains that I own would be used for God’s glory instead. But I am only human. Though with this basis, I would then begin to think twice when I am tempted to tweet something or post something that does not serve the purpose of sharing what God has done in my life, proclaiming Christ or encouraging another brother/sister. May these be kept for the private journal I bring around wherever I go or in the heart – for me to face it square in the face with God. I feel that my online domains do not do justice to the things I write in my journal. There is a huge discrepancy and I find that such a great pity. It does not mean that I will from now on pour out my heart here though.
I watched the advertisement for this year’s desiringgod national conference and felt encouraged. I hope that I would be able to attend it!
Its about thinking & the mind – just what I need in a season like this. Emotions play a vital part in loving God too, because it says to love your Lord and God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength. But now I think I need to love God with my thoughts and mind, so that my mind would be able to tell my emotions and heart what I should do, or rather to feel, to love God in the right way.
