my saturday;
October 26, 2008 
When it was time to say goodbye,
I really didnt want them to go.
She is the closest to family I’ve ever have, here.
and it was a fantabulous saturday,
even when we did the weirdest things ever.
see you, in a month’s time.
&, thankyou.
Dear Mom,
September 2, 2008 
You are my Nightlight.
Thank you for encouraging me to come here though I didn’t quite believe all the things you said about MHC being a wonderful place, but I’ve discovered for myself a fragment of its wonder already, and I know I will come to enjoy it. Thank you.
I’d miss you, but thanks (can’t be enough, though) for all the sacrifices you made and nonsense that you took all from me.
I love you.
Today, I thank God for Family.
August 29, 2008 
The gratefulness I feel in my heart for this entity will be eternal. Friends & Seasons come and go, but family sticks with you forever, whether you like it or not.
I want to remember my sacrificial mother, my grandparents and my aunty today as I move into Hall. I will be forever indebted to this family. I wouldn’t have survived it if I were here alone, knowing Abigail Han. So even if they have their own idiosyncracies and even when they look like their the only ones who can get me irritated, I’m thankful for a loving family. Yes, even those back home.
I thank God for His larger family too.
For people who care enough to keep up with me and keep me in prayers. How can I ever thank you enough for remembering me. Thanks for the love, it means alot.
You cant change family, You’d just have to figure ways to love them better.
grieve.
What does death taste like?
Today, I truly felt like I could almost feel the immense grief and pain of a loss so great. The loss called death. and I secretly asked God in my heart how come death was so painful. I didn’t understand. When grieve sorrow pain and tear gripped my heart today at the cremation, I was full of questions. But, my questions were answered as I remembered the cross, representing the pain and suffering of God’s own Son. And for that moment, I could draw comfort to know that He understands, because He tasted death and separation, Himself.
I understood what perfect love meant when I remembered the cross. I also understood the not-so-perfect love here (-points to heart-). I’ve always worried about not knowing what to say during such events, and feel so helpless not being able to say anything that comforts. But I understood that love does not need to come in the form of words: just being there, was enough. Giving warm hugs and sharing the pain, was enough. And welcome to the Tan family (mother’s side) where such love abounds. I understand, appreciate and am grateful that I’m part of this family. Family- Relationships are so important.
Goodbye Uncle Han, We’d miss you.
I’d always remember your classic smile.
