yay my first birthday cake for this year! baked by ailing (:

1) most amazing team prepared some amazing early birthday cum farewell dinner which rocked my socks. (thankz– it made me smile )

Miffy says hello

2) say hello to miffy- my first birthday present of the year! (thankew ailing ) I like miffy very much. Now my bear that sara gave me has a companion. I like this crochet hobby thing, so long as I am not the person who’s crocheting!

3) I like when we sit, share and pray together. the deep sense of fostering a relationship grounded in Christ is truly amazing. Can never imagine how God allowed our lives to even cross paths. and even for some, it meant going one whole big round and back again- because our God is amazing. So, I seek more. more of such fellowship of just sharing and praying and then realizing that God has led us in many ways that are similar.  let us remember philippians: I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead. quite amazing how God has led each one of us to this verse through different methods, ultimately leading us to ponder hard about the suffering aspect. let us continue to encourage one another :]

4) I think I’ve been busy. I missed out on quite a bit of some people’s life which I treasure. I apologize. You mean much much to me too! it’s just been occasion after occasion and thing after thing and people to meet after people to meet. I’m sorry if I’ve shown much neglect. ah, sigh. The woes of being confined in time and space! I will work doubly hard to keep in touch :] I trust God will sustain our friendship, despite the little time spent with each other. you are in my prayers. I think about you too. :]

5) this whole business about leaving: has eaten in to the trenches of my heart. I know I will not get to see everyone before I leave. that is sadz (times alot). there’s so many things I want to tell you, but there’s just no time. and everyone is busybusy. but this leaving thing, I have ultimately left to God to handle. this nagging fear of what if I die on the plane or what if you die before i come back… always a real fear. but ailing reminded me: if then any of us die, then it’ll be to our gain! (just like paul said: to live is Christ and to die is gain). let me live each day like I’m ready to see Christ.

6) I’ll miss you. <3 I think a part of me has been lost– this affectionate, I miss you, I love you, I’d like to give you a hug thingy.  A part of the affectionate me has gone with the wind and has gone with the rise of independence and I’ll like to do things on my own, thank you very much. I want to reclaim that part of me, because, I want to still be there lending a crying shoulder, holding a hand, giving a hug, when necessary. I must adjust! and I am still figuring out how to. I am just one awkward social creature that has lost affectionate prowess, I know not why! I pray God will soften my heart to show love in more ways than the ways I know how to. I yearn to love with my mind, and with my heart too.

ok, enough enough thoughts for a night of murtabak. I like. :]